[ mood | ecstatic ]
[ music | Faith No More – “Easy” ]

Today I took 1 bus, 2 PATH trains, 3 subways, 1 train & a 1 cab…. and it was so worth every minute of it.

[ mood | content ]
[ music | Jimmy Eat World – “In The Middle” ]

I was a social lil bug this weekend… which is odd for me as of late. Went out drinking with the crew from work. I think they’re a bunch of alcholics… but they’re fun ones. Got nicely toasted with them. Really enjoying work now when it’s not stressing me out. Ran around with “The Girl” on Saturday. So much fun was had. Love The Girl. Sunday I met up with a long lost friend from college. It was really great to talk with him. It was interesting because we didn’t really relive old times too much, just had a nice, long conversation about all kinds of stuff. Miss having those long conversations with people. Left a lot of conversation people like this guy, after I left college. Then the few I had in NYC moved away. A few remain, but it’s kinda sparse. After talking to The Girl all night Saturday and this guy on Sunday, I’m gonna be all homesick for talkin’.

Oh well.

[ mood | tired ]
[ music | Wang Chung – “Tall Trees In A Blue Sky” ]

So the other night I was slaving away on some crap for work, and I kinda needed a break. I ended up staring at some of the cleaning supplies I had picked up from K-Mart earlier. The latex gloves called out to me…

…so I filled one up with water and put it in the freezer. I peeled off the latex a few hours later, and I now have a hand of solid ice. It’s still sitting in my freezer.

[ mood | horrified ]
[ music | Poster Children – “Blatant Dis” ]

This is the most fucked up news story I’ve ever read. I kept forgetting I was NOT reading The Onion…

Scores of Bodies Strewn at Site of Crematory

[ mood | nostalgic ]
[ music | Veruca Salt – “Earthcrosser” ]

So I’m sitting here watching this unspectaular rerun of ER and it got me thinking about ensemble casts, and how some of them are better than others… like the earlier episodes of ER where it just worked better. Got me thinking about the heydays of the .com and how much fun we had. Sitting it the stairwell with Claudine. Stealing Vin away for a movie with Jetset. Visiting the Chainsaw in her office. Bonding & bitching about everything with everyone. Wonder if it’ll ever be like that again?

[ mood | ecstatic ]
[ music | King’s X – “Goldilox” ]

Just got back from a great concert a few minutes ago. You know it’s a great show when:
a) you can’t talk
b) even if you could, you wouldn’t be able to hear it because you’re now deaf.
c) The obscure band, as an encore, plays an obscure (non-single) song off their now 14-year-old debut album, which no one bought and proceed to turn the mics around to the audience, the band not singing a word, and the audience flawlessly sings the entire song perfectly.

Thank god for rock ‘n’ roll & NYC audiences.

ROCK (I’m making the devil sign now!)

[ mood | relaxed ]
[ music | Sea Ray – “Arrow Boy” ]

I had one of those weird days, where you forgot what you were going to do with the day… I went out Friday, and then Sunday I slept late. After that I did a bunch of oddjob types things… laundry, paying bills, etc. The thought in my head was that – “gee, I’ll get all this stuff done today, so Sunday will be wide open.”

Then Sunday came.

I totally forgot what I was going to do, if I even had a plan. Ending up kind of just not doing anything, but enjoying myself. It was kinda rainy/chilly out, so I didn’t feel like commuting anywhere… I’m totally spacey today. I’ve had like this weird fog lately. Dunno what it is.

Making a mix playlist… really mellow music. A lot of Salaryman, Air, Pell Mell, etc. Totally what my head feels like.

[ mood | amused ]
[ music | Conformco Brain Deprogrammers – “Echoveb 770 Remix” ]

Okay, so I’m eating Chinese food by myself last night… The fortune says, “There is true and sincere friendship between you both.” Okay, so either there’s a ghost living in my living room, the voices in my head are so loud the Chinese can hear them, or it’s just a personal dig at me since I’m by myself. At any rate, the food was good.

[ mood | accomplished ]
[ music | The Cure – “Wrong Number” ]

Had an interesting day at work. Got frustrated. Got angry. Send stern e-mail to vendor. Vendor changed mind all-of-a-sudden to agree with me. Saved the company a nice chunk of change by yelling at vendor. I rock.

Went out with Starky after work and hit Remote Lounge for a couple of drinks. These girls were making out all night. Nice enterainment.

Starky and I took some fun pix afterwards.

[ mood | sleepy ]
[ music | Pearl Jam – “Crown of Thorns (Live)” ]

So there’s hope out there… talked to another friend who found a job today. So that’s 5 formerly laid off dotcom workers (including me) that have gotten picked up by other companies. That’s a good sign… right?

I felt useful at work – in meetings & discussions. But again I didn’t get anything really done. Still just info dump & discussion. Pretty soon their gonna want results… To many freaking meetings.

Picked up another gay-friend merit badge today. Was talking to a girl I know… not too well, but well enough to be chatting casually on IM. We’ve never really talked personal stuff before while hanging out… just gotten drunk & bitched about music. All of sudden in the middle of some other IM conversation, she asks me for advice on some guy she likes. Ugh.

Did have a nice phoner with “The Girl” today. Wasn’t quite long enough, but they never are. “The Girl” rocks. Too bad she moved so far away, would be nice to hang ‘n’ chat in person.

Soooo sleepy.

[ mood | tired ]
[ music | nine inch nails – “The Only Time” ]

So I had a pretty productive day today, even though I slept really late. Got up & paid bills – woo hoo, and then I went into the city to see some movies. Deposited my paycheck, and ate some good, cheap, Mexican food… yum.

The first flick I went to see was “The Mothman Prophecies.” I really liked it. Kinda slow paced, but it worked for this flick. I knew where it was going, but that might just be because I read some Mothman lore when I was younger. Overall: good flick. But why the fuck would people bring their baby to see it? People like this should really be prevented from having children in the first place. “Hey, let’s go see a Rated-R movie in Manhattan… that features scary stuff, and loud noises… and let’s bring our baby!” Spring for a babysitter you pieces of shit. Ugh. As the movie started, I thought things were gonna be okay, but then about an hour in, she started balling. At least they had the decency to leave the theatre with her.

But then they came back. And she started screaming again. This time people in the audience let them know about it by shouting… “Shut up” and “Fucking shut-up that goddamned baby” — which is what I kinda felt like yelling, but didn’t. Eventually they left and never came back.

Part of me thinks that all people should be sterilized (reversalble) at birth… and when they reach a certain age, they can “apply” to be parents. They have to meet some qualifications… level of income high enough to care for baby… mental stability… no drug use, and a certain level of intelligence… at least common sense. If they qualify, *bam* you get your tubes/nuts untied & you can start fucking to make babies. It’s my hope that after a couple of generations of that, we’ll have gotten rid of most of the stupid people in the world. Of course I know this would never happen… but I’d like to see someone run for office on this platform sometime, just to see what happens…

The next flick I saw was “Birthday Girl.” Nicole Kidman was cute, but don’t believe the hype… this movie wasn’t very good. Not so awful that I got up and left… but just not good. Stay away. There was a guy snoring really loud a couple seats behind me for most of the movie, but it didn’t really bother me… that’s how little I was into this film.

Then I took the bus home. I hate the bus. It really irks me that’s it’s more convenient for me to take the bus home from work/play than the PATH now. The bus is so crowded and full of lame people. It only takes me about 10 minutes to get home via the bus, and 30 minutes via the PATH, but I find myself taking the PATH so I don’t have to take the bus. Ugh.

I was going to do some work when I got home… I brought it home on Friday from the office, but I just couldn’t make myself do it. I don’t even remember what it is. I suppose I’ll get up on Monday early and look at it… maybe. I’m having a hard time getting anything done at work. I can’t concentrate… or I don’t want to. I think a lot of it has to do with the meetings. I have a lot of meetings now. Some days it’s only one, but most days I have at least 3 or 4 and their back to back. It’s so tiring. By the time I get back to my desk, my brain is fried. I feel like I contribute pretty well in the meetings, but I haven’t done a lot outside of them. I hope the fog lifts soon. I’m really dreading going in tomorrow. I’m stoked I have a job. I’m stoked the pay me well to do it. I like the people. What’s wrong? Is it the content. Sometimes I think it’s the content. I have a hard time relating to it. I shouldn’t bitch, I just wish I could concentrate.

I’m bitching a lot in this post. I sound like such an asshole. A lot of my friends don’t have jobs, or are stuck in bad ones, and I’m bitching because I can’t concentrate. I think what worries me, is that it’s exhausting me. I come home and sit in front of the TV after work, then go to sleep, then get up and do it all over again. When I was laid off I was socializing, but since I’ve started working, the only time I’ve seen my friends is for lunch. I gotta figure a way to keep from reverting to my hermit status.

I did play around with my camera last night, and got some pretty nice nightime shots. I was pleased with how they came out.

I have a headache.

[ mood | mellow ]
[ music | Filter – “Hey Man Nice Shot” ]

I guess I can’t get away from this now… There is a really interesting multimedia presentation in the Times today about photojournalist and 9.11. They narrate the pictures they shot. Really powerful. You can get to it here.

I also added some not-so-traumatic pix at my [REDACTED] website. Galleries 027-029 are new.