Got my cable modem finally (long, boring story on the delay) – and daaaaaamn. Went from 650kbps down to 5,908kbps down…. quite a big difference. I still run into bottlenecks on some sites, but a lot of stuff that I waited for, is instantaneous now. If I go another week without problems I’m canceling my DSL for good.

I basically told my boss today that I wasn’t happy with my job – that was interesting. She says she wants me to be happy, and whether that’s moving to another department, leaving altogether or changing my current job to fit better, she’s down. So, I have a meeting with an HR director next week with the hopes that she’ll be able to help me figure out what I want to do. Basically I just want to be the guy I was 3 or 4 years ago – excited about my job, always pitching new ideas, and loving my job – just gotta figure out how to get there. It’s an exciting/nervous time.

My iPod wouldn’t load songs I have purchased through iTunes – turns out it was a simple fix. Downloaded an iPod update from Apple.

Saw “Garden State” after work tonight by myself. I absolutely loved that movie, and I’m glad I went solo.

Also rented “The Station Agent” last week. Again, I loved it. Both were Jersey-shot films…

SONG OF THE MOMENT: Simple Kid – “Love’s an Enigma”

I’m at home and should be finishing up some work I brought with me, but I can’t really seem to get into it. I’m having one of those days that’s just – ugh. I’m feeling lost lately – mostly in relation to my job, but my whole life is kind of in question right now. I often have the feeling that I’m not particularly good at my job, and today I kind of realized why – well, I’ve probably known all along, maybe the rain brought it out though – I just don’t care about it. Web promotions and marketing just isn’t floating my boat. I could totally rock my job, but it’s kind of hard to when you’re not really turned on. I’m not sure if I’m burnt out on the web altogether, or just this specific job. I’ve never known what I what I wanted to be when I grew up – so I don’t have a specific career goal. That makes it hard to know what do to next. If knew for example that I wanted to be a VP, then I could work my way through the current position, and angle for a promotion – but I don’t know that. I’m also at the point where I depend on the money I make, so I can’t just quit, and dick around trying to “find myself.” I’ll need to slide into another job or career at approximately my same pay grade. I wish I had that voice inside saying “You were destined to be a _______.”

SONG OF THE MOMENT: Tangerine Dream – “Love On A Real Train”

The weather was so nice today that I took a stroll to the local Starbucks to grab some kind of iced goodness and chill outside. I brought my tiny laptop along because I thought I might edit some play lists while I was relaxing – which I did until the iPod battery died. After that I went over to my pier to read and take in the fresh air. Turns out that the book I grabbed on the way out the door was one I had actually already worked my way through and I didn’t feel like reading it again. So, without book and without tunes I just sat on the bench and people-watched. About five minutes ago, just for shits and giggles I decided to boot up the laptop to see if I could find any available networks. Lo and behold, here I am sitting on a pier about 150 yards out into the Hudson on a free Internet connection. Lovely. So whoever is running the “zeynep” hub in Hoboken – thanks for sharing.

88Kbps today. That’s like a biscuit more than dial-up. This is the second time in two weeks, and the umpteenth time in four years that my connection has gone to crap. I just ordered cable modem service to try out. Free shipping, $24 bucks a month, if I like it, I’m canceling my DSL.

Verizon sucks. Although the tech support guy I talked to tonight was cool. If you speak to “Brandon” tell him I said “he rocks.”

SONG OF THE MOMENT: My Bloody Valentine – “I Only Said”